I am back

It's been a few months since my last posting and I literally have no excuse. Cause I have been twittering and facebooking.......Well a little. Twitter and facebook was a well needed outlet.

My husband and I........bought a house,

moved,

had family visiting for 2 months

and of course stress.

In between all the craziness I have been working on a few projects. I am still in the process of finishing them up and bring them full circle from

to to reality........

(looking for a picture huh...NOT yet)

Most importantly, I have been doing a lot of soul searching. Then one day @laracasey posted a blog, #Truthday. It made me cry and made me think even longer and harder about my life and my priorities. What I have been through to get where I am and where I am headed. 

So here is my #TruthThursday. 

I just turned 31 in July and I have been married twice. Have a beautiful daughter from my first marriage and a handsome step son from my second. Some say being married twice is okay but to me it is too much. I never thought I would get married again till I met Christopher. One thing for sure I am in a much happier and better place spiritually, thankfully to my wonderful husband. I tell him I love him everyday.....seriously I do. If I forget one day I make up for it the next :-) Since we both were married before we got hitched at City Hall in Brooklyn.......and it was great!!!

I am an emotional and sensitive person and I have made many of my decisions based on my heart. Sometimes it was for the best and sometimes it wasn’t. I think I have come a long way and worked on that.

I have been hurt many times by those I thought had my best interest at heart. I have learned my lesson.

I love people. I love helping out people in times of need no matter how big or small the situation that I forget about myself and I end up with the shorter end of the stick (in other eyes)........my thing is as long as I did right in God's eyes I'll be fine.

I love to laugh at almost anything but sometimes I cry at nothing. My husband finds it a bit crazy but sometimes my soul needs to let loose I say.

I love food…..I love to eat it and I love to cook it. My motto "I'll eat anything that won't eat me first" LOL

I was born and raised in Saint Lucia. I love that I am an "island girl". Yeah mon!! lol

When I started my business I was so sure of myself and knew I could do it. But then a few months ago I felt otherwise. I prayed and prayed and then I realized I was wrong......I did make the right choice and that I have to stay positive and keep on working hard. I have not even touched on the tip of my potential. 

I think I have wasted too much of my time after college on non creative stuff that I have lost some of my "mojo". Thanks god that's not the case. I have started drawing again (feels good) and hopefully I can start painting once again.

I am scared to death of roller coasters and all high rides. Went white water rafting once....don't think I ever will again.

My daughter brings me so much joy but she also drives me crazy. She is so much like me. I worry if I will continue to be a good mother and make the right decisions for her.

I love both my parents dearly (they are divorced). My dad taught me that prayer is the most valuable weapon to have. He also kept telling me “Stoop to conquer”. I wondered as a young girl what in the world is daddy talking about. I do now….

My mother, lord so help if anything happens to her I may flip. She lives in Saint Lucia and I miss her dearly but sometimes…..she pushes that button. That’s all I can say. I love my mommy

Earlier this week I realized that I really do not like my day job. It pays the bills and I am grateful I have one. Like the saying “When better can’t be done worse must continue”. Not for too long for me.

I really believe what you profess will come true. When I was younger I kept saying on many occasions I want my first kid at 24. Literally right after my 24^th birthday I got pregnant and gave birth before my 25^th birthday. (Never will I do that again).

I used to be afraid and complain about what I didn’t have and what I needed to do. I don’t anymore. I am grateful for the many blessings that god has bestowed on me and my family.

This week Saundra from @planningforever (She doesn’t know but I heart this funny lady. Hope I can meet her one day soon) Now back to what I was saying. Saundra posted a blog on twitter that she found about @basicallybecky. Did you read it?? I cried when I did. (Can you tell how emotional I am.) I think everyone should. Makes you think and appreciate what you have even more.

I do believe that my business will be successful. I think god has put the right people in my life to accomplish that.

I have learned to love myself more and more each day and take each day one at a time.

Now I am afraid to post this……….hmmm what do I have to lose………..nothing.

Peace and love. Stay blessed

khadine